At a point, where everything's fuzzy, and running away seems so attractive.

Where have I been?

Sorry I haven't updated. I have been dealing with a sick munchkin. My little guy has spent 3 days in the hospital, fighting a nasty virus and dehydration. I promise I haven't gone any where. He should be getting discharged today.  As a matter of fact, he should be getting discharged within the hour. ;) Crossing my fingers!!

Cupcake goes to the vet tomorrow.

Update: CUPCAKE never made her vet appt, due to the above post. We will be rescheduling and I can guarantee, the corresponding story will be a great read. ;)

It's her first time. And I expect her to be a whiny little turd.  The only time she ever was put into her cat carrier, was when the furniture store delivered our bed. They had to leave the front door propped open, so we put her in her carrier, on our daughter's bed (her favorite spot any way) and the little diva, dang near killed herself, and her carrier, trying to get out.  Tomorrow should be interesting, to say the least. =D

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.


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Well, I think this question is sort of vain. But it's part of it, so I suppose I'll give it a go.  I absolutely love that I can look at all views of a situation and be as unbiased as humanly possible.  I am not a "black and white," opinion type of person at all.  I see all grey areas and try to open up others to it and help them realize a reason for why one thing is one way, and another is another.  It's hard to explain.  But yep, that's something I really like about ME.

Why not?

I saw this on a fellow bloggers blog and figured it'd be a great thing to do, because for at least as long as it lasts, I will not go a day without at least blogging something. =D
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Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.






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I don't HATE, but definitely dislike the way I over analyze things. I dislike that I get horrible anxiety if I'm not in control of something, or if something doesn't go as planned.  It's awful..  I am working desperately to fix it, or over come it.  I am not a huge fan of meds and my OCD and anxiety are in full blown, crazy lady mode lately - so NEEDLESS TO SAY, it's been an interesting few weeks.

Fill In The Blanks Saturday

1.   The TV show/website that I watch/read that I would be embarrassed to tell anyone about is       Honestly, nothing. I am usually on a news website, email, blog, or FB. I read up on photography, parenting, debating.  Nothing embarrassing. =)

2.  An item of clothing that is worn and torn but that I love far to much to throw away is    My cami. It's pink and it belonged, originally, to a friend named, Beth.  She always said it was her favorite and one day I borrowed it, literally at least 7 years ago, and I've had it ever since.  It's too small now and has holes, but I can't get rid of it.. it's so comfortable.

3.  My grocery store impulse buy is       Magazines.

4. This question was about work and co-workers. Obviously, doesn't work for me. =P

5.  One thing in my life that I could give up, but never will is     Chocolaaateeeee.

6.  A little indulgence that I have is        Candles.  I cannot live without them .

7.  The junk drawer/area in my house is       in the kitchen, under the microwave. It's full of EVERYTHING  .

If I need a giggle..

I can always count on these:

http://icanhascheezburger.com/ has an absolutely adorable collection of reader created images, of their animals doing silly things, or just pictures found off of the internet, with cute captions.  That's it.  Very simple.  And I love it! I'm easily amused like that.

SO CUTE.

I am STARVING.

Because - I am dieting, AGAIN.

I just want to eat a big, fat burger.... grrrr..

I cannot tell you how many times people have told me how ridiculously skinny I am.  I have to tell you, I'm blessed. And not because the crowds are correct, but because I am the horrific apple shape.  I know that sounds contradictory, but hear me out, please.  Apple-shaped women very easily hide their most un-appreciated body part.  Their tummies!  An apple-shaped woman can have the skinniest of limbs, yet have a pocket of fat on their tummy.  This is ME!  =) =(

To help you understand, imagine Angelina Jolie.  One of the most beautiful women on the planet... many times, in magazines because of her frigid, skinny frame.  Little does everyone know, Angelina Jolia is also an apple shape.  It's hard to tell because she is so skinny.

If Angelina ever actually did decide to let herself go.. it'd go STRAIGHT to her abdominal region.

I guess because I'm sick of people telling me how ridiculous it is that I might diet, every once and a while... I had to just let this out.  The point of the matter is, no matter what you see from the outside, because TRUST ME, I know my legs are TINY, and my wrists look breakable.. I am definitely HIDING something.

I guess I'm lucky that my problem area is easy to hide. But know, that even thought you can't always see it. It's always on my mind.

I feel like spongebob.. haha a big ol square, on two stick legs... grrr..... =P

My sickest obsession.

Pandora internet radio is one thing, I absolutely, cannot live without.  Take FB, take Blogger, take my e-mail, but DO NOT TOUCH my Pandora. :)

My favorite station right now is the 80's pop station and I just loveeeeeeeee it!

I need to have no worries.

Children and their terrible tantrums.

The very popular subject of handling tantrums was brought up on a forum, today, that I frequent.  I always love seeing the different opinions of parents and the different ways that people may handle the same situation.  The subject carried deeper, into the idea of how it would be handled if you were in public, versus the privacy of your own home.

My tactic is usually the same, whether we're in public, or at our house.  In my opinion, if your child isn't disciplined at home, they will not act disciplined in public.  I also believe that consistency is the Golden Rule to parenting.  No one can defend the argument, that a disobedient child in public, is no fun.  Especially - when it's your child.

There were many arguments placed in our friendly debate.  For Ex:

Giving the child something to distract them. (A sucker, snack, toy, etc.)
Stopping what you're doing, dropping what you're goal is and leaving, and then explaining to your child how their behavior was inappropriate and unappreciated.
Giving them a swat on the behind and reminding them that they are not in control.
and a few others..

I take claim to that last one, while also adding that I am usually prepared with a snack, juice, or small toy, for my toddler son, who sometimes gets bored with shopping.  I will also state that if my son is acting a fool, I will never try to quiet him with a bribe.  In my opinion, that only shows him that if he acts like a nut, I'll reward him with a snack or a toy.

I am a huge fan of a pop on the behind or the thigh and a time out.  That's usually my plan of action, if I've already asked for the situation to be resolved, and I'm being battled.  I don't think that a child should ever be under the impression that they may win an argument with a parent.  I don't really think that a child should ever even imagine that it's appropriate for them to enter an argument with a parent.

I don't know why my opinion is so different from so many others.  I guess it's all about where we are raised and how our parents parented.  I just always want my children to understand that I am the boss, period.  I shouldn't have to re-iterate that throughout their childhood and I think that consistency and firmness holds that point, solidly.

:) Krysta

Our bed has finally arrived!! (last night any way)

While I'm making pancakes for my little crew to enjoy, I wanted to share our bed with you.  That sounds like an invite, but it's not, haha - because trust me.. even a king sized bed isn't enough for me, my husband, and our two munchkins - which they proved while crashing our dream time this morning.  =D It's always nice to see their faces in the morning though, so I have no complaints.  The bed sleeps like a dream and our sheets, which are Egyptian cotton, by demand of the husband, are equally amazing.  Here's our new present to ourselves:

Because a phone camera is always with you...

I've decided to to randomly (literally, randomly pick pictures by shaking my phone) post pictures that are in my phone. Maybe once or twice a week, or if something that I just have to post comes up. =D Here's my first one:

This is Emily, Braelyn's 2nd American Girl doll.  She got her first one, Sara, who I'm sure you'll see eventually, from my dad, for Christmas.  The one pictured above, is from her Grandma Dena (Cody's mom). She is absolutely in love with these dolls. She has a hair curling kit for them and asks me to curl their hair, constantly.  I told her I would today... so maybe this is my random picture as a subtle reminder? :) Any way, the dolls are adorable, and ridiculously expensive.. and though I never got one as a child, I'm glad my daughter gets to experience them.

The American Widow Project [rips my heart out].

http://www.americanwidowproject.org/

I've spent some time lately reading over and learning the stories of our generation of military widows.  I have had goosebumps for a couple of hours now... I don't think they're going away any time soon.  So often we take for granted what we're blessed with.  My husband has been on a MEU deployment and a disaster relief deployment.  He'll soon be leaving for his next deployment, which is fortunately another MEU.  I have friends who have husbands who have been or are deployed in combat zones and I see their fear.  I've heard their fear.  I'm so sorry for the fear that they have to live through.  Even more so, though, I am sorry for those who are facing the reality of those fears.  I just cannot imagine.  I am going to try to not write too much, because I fear I may say something completely stupid, because like I said, I just cannot imagine.  I just don't know.  But I am so sorry.  I thank your SO's for their service and will continue to think of them and remember them.  I am so thankful for a project like the AWP, which brings stories of those lost to light.  They deserve at least that.

Our gift to ourselves, shall arrive TOMORROW!

My husband and I have wanted new mattresses for as long as we can remember. Lately, it's become our biggest "want." After having my mattresses for about 12 years, you can imagine, they're in rough shape.  So we decided to spoil ourselves and go for a king! New bed, new mattresses, new spot for us to make OUR OWN memories.  I am soooo thrilled.

This will be brough to us tomorrow:

**Happyyyy dance!!**

What are you and your SO getting for yourselves with your tax money this year?

I'm getting him a new grill. =D Can't wait.

We all know I'm terrible at blogging.

But there is something about it that I can't drag myself away from. Considering that my dear husband deploys soon though, I figured, "What the HAY!"  When he's gone, I get bored a lot, and when the kids go to bed, I'm usually left up, trying to figure out what to do with myself.  I have so much to say, soooo, I'm trying again.