Facebook.

The more I read up, google, and research FB.. the more I realize what a joke it is.  FB has been proven to do many negative things... from lowering students grades, exposing people to more divorce-worthy situations, and causing people's self esteem to lower dramatically.

Call me crazy, but it isn't worth it.

I mean, we are living in a de-sensitized generation as it is.  I can't imagine that FB is improving that, AT ALL.

I mean, think about it. When somebody asks you why you have a FB, the usual answer is, "to keep in touch with friends and family."  Well, what about e-mail?  I mean, seriously, how well is it helping you to keep in touch with friends and family, by signing onto FB religiously throughout the day, and reading 500 different status updates?  Because I bet that's what you do.  I also bet that not even a quarter of those were friends and family.  I'm not pointing fingers and calling names.  I think mostly I'm trying to convince myself that I'm going to be okay without FB.  Because let's face it... I LOVE FACEBOOK.  I'm just coming to terms with the fact that reading what people are doing throughout the day, isn't really something I have to, or need to do.  I don't even know half of them.  I mean, sure, we've been online friends FOREVER... But that even just sounds ridiculous.  Not only that, but why the heck do I feel the need to keep others updated in my life?  I guess, for once, I'm all about privacy.  This is my life.  This is my marriage.  These are my children.  It's crazy, when you run into someone from HS, that you haven't seen in years, and they're like, "Yeaaa, I saw what happened, from FB."  WHAT?!?!  It's a shame.  I am sort of wishing that I lived in an older time, with just enough technology to help medically.  Things are just out of control....

Err... oh well.

Becoming who I am.

Over the past few years, slowly, I have realized that who I've been is NOT who I am.  Slowly, yet surely, I'm becoming who I believe I am meant to be.  I was baptized earlier this year and my relationship with God has grown immensely.  I have jumped head first into this new life and I feel that my marriage and my children have both benefited from this new person I have become.  I have also been dealing with my underlying traumas, from my childhood and young adulthood, and that too, I believe is playing a huge part into my "breaking the circle."

I have also come to a final decision to delete my networking addiction, being Facebook.  My husband has expressed many times his disliking for this website, and I have decided that it isn't important enough to cause fights in my life.

My photography business is slowly coming up to it's 1 year anniversary and I am so thrilled.  I cannot wait to grow even more, and meet so many more people, throughout my next year.

There's a lot to learn about myself and I figured what better way, than writing about myself?  I've tried this before and eventually it just drifted away.  I'm hoping this will be different.

Love.