Unfortunately, half of it is being spent apart, because he's running some stuff to the guys at the port. Once he gets home, I imagine, we'll just sit around and act as if it's another day. And it's Sunday, so of course we'll be watching ARMY WIVES & COMING HOME. Tonight is THE episode we have all been waiting for.... Any guesses as to who is passing away? I'm torn between Chase and Jeremy... IDK. I'm definitely interested in who it will be and how it will affect the rest of the shows.
Anyway, back to the main topic.. tomorrow he leaves. Our daughter is having one hell of a time, dealing with this. The 1st time he deployed she was 3. She didn't know what a deployment was. She didn't know how bad she would miss him. So it was much, much easier. The 2nd time around was short and sweet, and he went to Haiti. She did "okay," I guess because I kept reminding her, he'd be home much sooner than last time. Now, here we are, and she is 6 years old. She's much more aware of our family life and what her daddy does. She knows now, what a deployment is, and that the reality of this is, she may not see her daddy for 10 months or longer. She told me herself, she's older now and she knows how bad she's going to miss him. She cries periodically throughout the day and it hurts, because truthfully, there's absolutely NOTHING I can do. It's just a sad situation. I wish there were some way that I could make it easier for her, but we all know there's none. Fortunately, Camdyn is only 2, so he really has NO idea what is going on. I'm no naive enough to believe that it won't affect him though and I know there will be days that he cries for daddy, too. Military wives, really DO, have the hardest job. I don't pretend to think my husband has an easy one, because I've said a million times, I cannot imagine being the one who had to actually walk away from my family. But being left here is not an easy task. On top of missing my husband, paying the bills, and taking care of the children, I have to look at their sad, empty faces, and try to explain to them why daddy isn't here, in a manner that is appropriate, obviously. It's just hard. I guess there's not much else to say today. There will be plenty more to come, though.. I'm quite the blogger during deployments.
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